Is it me or is it usual to wake up and started to think about silly things? I noticed that as i wake up from my sleep, i actually not feeling refresh as my new day started. Instead i feel tired, because my mind wont stop thinking about things that are irrelevant to think about. Oh god, please relieve me from this tiredness.
All this started as a series of unfortunate event happened in my life. Lots of things that i want to forget about but it actually haunts me until this day. I feel so tired everyday. To make my mind stop to thinking about this bullshit, i actually hangs out with my friends. They are one of my remidies to get me stop thinking abouty problems. Now i understand a proverb saying that no man is an island.
There are a lots of unfortunate events that happened in my life and only God knows what have i been through. As time goes by, i thought all these things will be forgotten, but it turns out it is the other way around.
As i am typing this entry, i actually cried on the inside. I always remember that a japanese proverb said that we humans are actually wearing 3 mask as we go on with our everyday life. The first mask is actually you wear to show to the world. The second mask you wear is when you are with your friends. It is true about when you are with your friends, you are tend to be another person. In other words show them your dark side of your character. Im sure all of you actually feel the same. Lastly is the mask where ONLY YOU will know. Not your family, not your siblings but only you know who that character is.
I am totally agree with that proverb. Because i actually experience with what that proverb said. In my deep deep heart actually i want someone to know the third mask that i wear. But i think that it is impossible for anyone to know. Because it was kept hidden inside a really really dark places in your heart. Only you have the access to it. This entry is written as i am having a bad start in my day. Well then, that is all for today. See you all again next time. Bye.
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